RENISSANCE

hello friends m back to my blog again after a span of long time. i know i had decided to be regular with my posts but couldnt help because of some unavoidable situations going on. but i apologize for the same and will now try to be regular with my posts. to start it all over again m producing below a poem which i jotted down in my very first class after my supplimentary exam i.e. my war for existence........................

WHEEL OF LIFE- the struggle for existence!!!!

Long time ago there lied a deep sea,
No expressions ,no feelings born inside me.

I had the peace of mind,
The world then seemed to be kind,
As the years passed by,
I had many questions of why......

Nobody was able to answer me
The world got ready to slither me.

I ran from it, I screemed with pain,
But no one came to my aid and it all went in vain.

Soon I realised I was all alone,
I need to build my strength and fight on my own.

Life is a gift, dont let it go,
Live for your family , friends or even foe

The clock keeps ticking and world gets moving,
Success is on your way and the days are grooming!!!!!!!!

cant explain......


Everytime and everyday i see the mirror and say to myself chandan this day is all yours .....just go n conquer it..but many a times i let this feeling down by surrendering myself to some selfish causes of people around me....no these people are not my close ones for whom i am too much concerned but these are people who are not making any positive difference out of my life...TEACHERS as you say......this word has lost its meaning somewhere in the past... now the position of teachers has been taken aside by some teacher alike creatures who are nothing more than dictators who just to satisfy their egoistical hungers are having a feast on student's future so as to serve a purpose that by doing this the students will remember them forever...yes for one moment they succeed but have they ever thought as to doing all such deeds where would their students land... they are just killing the rational thinking amongst the students and what is left behind is a much selfish personality who has no space for feelings ..he just wants to get through his studies doing every bit of thing that can please a teacher. i never thought of doing such things in life but they are compelling me to do it. many of my batch have started opting for this cut throat competition of pleasing the teacher so as to get good grades. i cant convince myself to do such because i myself know that this is not going to help me in any way after a span of 4 or 5 yrs of life after graduation. after disgusting performances in first few semesters i started feeling that may be i am not givin the best of me.but after 6the results of last sem it made me clear about all wrong perceptions of mine. there is something called ACTIVATION ENERGY required to do well in each field of development and this is sure u cant reach that point without a catalyst or a person who can pull you off from a crowd of so called useless people.................huhhh!!!!

WHAT M I DOIN ???


How it came ? When will it go ? I am depressed ? I am excited ?It all started with love and ends with it! This feeling of being in LOVE is really weird ? So complicated ! So overwhelming! So overpowering!There exist a person/persons whose presence makes u feel better, may be best. No it’s not infatuation. It is not merely attraction. It is beyond it....the thing which is even difficult to feel....i can only feel some excitement, some restlessness, and some confusion!Love...i think is very essential. It changes you! It makes u feel good, think good, perform better as an individual. It makes u happy!Love is full of adventures. Why would anyone search for them if his own self (read mind) is playing such games with him ?All these were the manifestations of love but what it exactly is ? It is YOU my friend! b'coz u have made all this possible for me. Now i can feel it. Now i can think like this.

INNER CONFLICTS

There are few moments in life when you try to escape from everything and do only one task that gives u pleasure. Thinking about yourself, your own life..... is something that we try to escape from as this discomforts us as we dont want to get off the goody goody things.
i had always tried to escape from that. I used to think earlier in a manner that what should i do that would not displease anyone around me and will earn appreciation for me. All this would put me in a situation where i found myself nowhere in any scene. That made me think should i change this attitude , or should i wait and see what all is there in HIS store for me.
A time came when i was lacking behind in everything. Be it studies , competition, girlfriends and the most important thing CONFIDENCE. One day i decided that i'll not let my life control me but i will again rise from scraps and show the world what kind of dignity i owe. M still in the process and m sure one day when the sun will rise saying... " GOOD MORNING CHANDAN". !!!!!

HI ALL !!!

Finally, after so much of chaos and all those no-time excuses i am here with my own blog. Right from the first day when this blogging concept started around me i thought i was going to create my blog too. So here i am to share with you all some of my inner most feelings. Hope i present the real side of mine in these blogs. I ll try to be very original and very interesting . But, if you ever find that i am slipping off the main stream please make me over it.